CHARTED | Mandi Caskey’s Matrix of Destiny Reading: Grief, Creativity & Intuition

Every artist has a language.

For muralist Mandi Caskey, that language is scale, symbolism, folklore, and transformation.

In this episode of CHARTED, we explore Mandi's Matrix of Destiny chart through the lens of tarot archetypes, uncovering why grief has become one of her greatest teachers, why she feels most alive creating large-scale murals, and how intuition has quietly guided her work all along.

Her chart reveals powerful themes of perspective, resilience, healing, and creative purpose, along with an invitation to stop carrying the weight of everyone else's healing and begin honoring her own.

If you've ever wondered how numerology and tarot can reveal your natural gifts, life lessons, and deeper purpose, Mandi's reading is a beautiful place to begin.

CHARTED: Mandi Caskey

Mandi Caskey, also known as Miss Birdy, is a Columbus-based muralist whose work feels impossible to separate from scale, movement, myth, and place.

Her murals are vibrant, bold, whimsical, and deeply rooted in nature, folklore, and local culture. She transforms ordinary walls into public stories, the kind of art people don’t have to enter a gallery to experience. Her work lives out in the world, on buildings, in neighborhoods, in cities, in the shared visual language of community.

Before we got into her Matrix of Destiny chart, I asked Mandi how she would describe herself.

Her answer was immediate, honest, and deeply aligned with what her chart would later reveal.

She described herself as “a typical Pisces woman” with an avoidant nature, deeply emotional, thoughtful, and someone who has held a lot of grief.

“I hold a lot,” she said. “I hold everything.”

She also described herself as a doer.

Someone who creates with her hands constantly. Someone who needs to build, make, move, and process through creation.

“If I didn’t, I’d probably go crazy,” she said.

And while she used to be able to work small, lately, small feels too contained. Her work has expanded in scale because her energy has expanded in scale. Creating large murals lets her move her whole body. It lets her physically process what she’s carrying.

“It’s like a full experience,” she said.

She also described herself as deeply connected to nature and storytelling, someone who lives in a “mystic realm” of her own creation. She’s drawn to folklore, green witchery, herbs, growth, and healing through the natural world.

She is also hyper-focused, highly practical, and very much a problem solver. Her words were “MacGyver mind.”

If something isn’t working, Mandi is the person who will take pieces A, B, and D and figure out how to make them into something functional.

So, of course, her chart was going to be interesting.

Inner Self: The Hanged Man

Mandi’s inner self is represented by The Hanged Man.

The Hanged Man is often misunderstood because the name itself can feel intense, but energetically, this card is about surrender, perspective, and the ability to see what others cannot.

Some tarot decks have renamed The Hanged Man as “Surrender.” Others call it “Perspective.” Both names fit beautifully here.

People with The Hanged Man as their inner self often carry a compassionate, selfless, deeply creative way of seeing the world. They are here to bring more mercy, goodness, and understanding into life. They often serve as examples of support, care, and creative perception.

They have the ability to look at something familiar and make people see it differently.

This immediately made me think of Mandi’s Mona Lisa mural.

When you look at it, you know it is the Mona Lisa, but it is also unmistakably Mandi. It is a familiar image transformed through her eye, her energy, her symbolism, and her scale. That is Hanged Man energy.

The ability to take what people think they already know and turn it just enough that they have to see it differently.

This placement also speaks to a strong connection with miracles, magic, guardian angels, and unseen support. Mandi shared that she communes with her parents often and receives signs from them through sensory experiences, smells, presences, and little moments that feel like gifts.

“Their presence will come with a smell or some sort of sensory overload, and something lovely will happen like an hour later,” she said. “It definitely feels like guardian angel.”

The Hanged Man can also bring a pattern of self-sacrifice.

This is someone who may naturally support others, but can overgive if they are not careful. People may turn to them for emotional, spiritual, or even physical healing. Their compassion is real, but so is the risk of depletion.

For Mandi, the lesson here is boundaries. Learning how to say no.

Learning how to stop offering herself as the bridge, the balm, the helper, the container, especially when the giving becomes one-sided.

She described herself as naturally giving and someone who loves opening people’s worlds, especially young girls. But when it comes to people her own age, especially men, she has experienced the cycle of people taking energetically.

“I will deplete,” she said. “Then I will self-sacrifice, and then go through the cycle of cleansing and rejecting and self-sacrifice over and over again.”

The Hanged Man’s medicine is surrender, but not self-abandonment.

It is the art of letting go without disappearing.

Outer Self: The Moon

Mandi’s outer self is The Moon.

In the Matrix of Destiny, the outer self, or portrait, reflects how others perceive you. This is the energy people feel when they encounter you.

The Moon gives Mandi a mystical, captivating nature.

This is the person people experience as intuitive, imaginative, emotionally rich, mysterious, creative, and connected to something deeper than the visible world.

Moon people often have a strong inner world, heightened intuition, prophetic dreams, and a natural relationship with lunar cycles.

When I told Mandi that Moon people often already love the moon, she said, “I do have a very intimate love for the moon.” Of course she does.

The Moon as an outer self can also make someone a powerful manifestor. What they focus on tends to grow. Their thoughts, emotions, dreams, and intentions have a magnetic quality.

For Mandi, the reminder is not that she has to be positive all the time.

It is that her focus is powerful.

When she chooses where to place her attention, energy moves.

The funny problem with this placement is that sometimes Moon people manifest too many things at once. They focus on several desires, all of them start happening, and suddenly they are juggling every dream they called in. And as Mandi said, “It’s a great problem to have, but it’s still a problem.”

Karmic Tail: Love Magic

Mandi’s karmic tail is made up of The Moon and a double Lovers energy.

The karmic tail in the Matrix of Destiny points to energy carried from past lives. It represents patterns the soul is working through in this lifetime so they do not continue repeating.

The name of Mandi’s karmic tail is Love Magic.

This karmic pattern often speaks to themes of external validation, dependency, longing, romantic intensity, and the deep work of developing self-love.

The Moon brings magic, fear, illusion, loneliness, and emotional dependency.

The Lovers brings desire, attachment, betrayal, and the search for love outside the self.

And Mandi has The Lovers twice here, which amplifies the lesson.

When I described this pattern, she said, “Annoyingly accurate. Ew.”

In past lives, this karmic tail can point to experiences where love was desired intensely but not returned, where love magic may have been used to attract or hold a partner, or where love became something tangled with possession, sacrifice, or longing.

In this lifetime, it can show up as a strong need for love, but difficulty trusting or expressing it. There may be cycles of seeking love externally, moving through relationships, or trying to receive from others what the self is actually longing to receive internally.

For many people with this karmic tail, the root traces back to childhood and the feeling of being unloved, under-loved, inconsistently loved, or loved in a way that did not meet their emotional needs.

Mandi shared that her father died when she was 15.

That loss adds another layer to the pattern. A longing for love, especially from men, that is not about blame or fault, but about absence. About wanting something that could not fully be there.

This karmic tail also often links love with touch and tactile expression.

The lesson here is not to avoid love.

It is to stop making love the place where the self disappears.

It is to build relationships by giving love, not only seeking it. To remove jealousy, envy, fear, and pride. To develop self-love. To avoid becoming overly fixated on relationships or partners. To choose from the heart, but not abandon the self in the process. And, oddly specifically, to avoid love spells.

The deeper teaching of this karmic tail is that The Lovers is a mirror.

The qualities we crave from another person are often qualities our own inner self is begging us to give ourselves first.

Love is not absent from Mandi’s chart. It is everywhere.

But the lesson is to let love become a mirror, not a wound she keeps reopening.

Love Line: The Moon + Double Chariot

Because Mandi’s karmic tail had such strong love themes, we also looked at her love line.

Her past karmic influence in love is The Moon, which directly connects back to the karmic tail.

This means Mandi’s relationships need depth. They need emotional and spiritual connection. Not necessarily someone who practices the same rituals or uses the same language, but someone who can meet her in the deeper waters.

A relationship for her cannot be purely practical or surface-level.

It has to include emotional richness, individuality, imagination, creative pursuit, and space for both people to remain whole. A partnership where there is a “we,” but also two fully alive individual people.

The double energy in her love line is The Chariot.

The Chariot brings passion, movement, purpose, and momentum into relationships. This is not stagnant love. This is not love that sits on the couch and slowly fuses into one person.

This is love as a vehicle for growth.

With The Chariot, aligned relationships accelerate both people. Personal goals move faster. Shared dreams gain traction. Each person motivates the other. There is a respectful power dynamic where sometimes one person leads, sometimes the other does, and both can trust each other with the reins.

For Mandi, love needs motion. Love needs direction. Love needs freedom and momentum.

Talents: The High Priestess, The Tower, and Temperance

Mandi has three major talent energies in her chart: The High Priestess, The Tower, and Temperance.

These are innate gifts. Often, they are so natural that a person may not even recognize them as talents.

Talent One: The High Priestess

The High Priestess gives Mandi the ability to perceive what is unspoken.

She can walk into a room and feel what just happened there. She can sense emotional undercurrents, symbolic layers, and truths that have not yet been said out loud.

This placement makes her an environment stabilizer, a voice of clarity, and a natural mediator.

It also gives her the ability to see the world through symbolic layers, which is obviously a powerful gift for an artist whose work blends folklore, nature, story, and public space.

Mandi said she knows this about herself, especially in her family.

When emotions are high or hard conversations need to happen, she often becomes the one who can connect the dots. “That is definitely one of my superpowers.”

The reminder with The High Priestess is to trust the inner knowing instead of hiding it.

Mandi is not meant to flatten her depth or make her work easier to digest.

She is allowed to say, yes, this mural is beautiful, but it is also layered with symbolism, story, grief, myth, nature, and meaning.

She is not here to force or convince. She is here to reveal.

Talent Two: The Tower

Mandi’s second talent is The Tower, which I personally love as a talent placement.

The Tower is often feared in tarot, but as a talent, it represents the ability to transform destruction into the foundation for something greater.

This gives Mandi resilience, crisis calm, restoration energy, and the ability to rebuild from the ashes.

She is a master restorer. A protector. A practical analyst.

Someone who can look at collapse and say, “Okay. What now?”

That is Tower mastery.

Not bypassing the pain. Not pretending it does not hurt.

But being able to move through it and build something better.

She described herself as very good at pivoting. Even when something hurts, even when it feels deeply emotional, there is a part of her that breathes and says, “Okay. There needs to be an understanding here, and we will just make it work.”

That is The Tower.

Not destruction for destruction’s sake.

Destruction as initiation. Destruction as redesign.

Destruction as the moment the old structure admits it was never strong enough to hold the life you were becoming.

Talent Three: Temperance

Mandi’s third talent is Temperance.

Temperance is the alchemist. The bridge. The harmonizer.

This placement gives Mandi a gift for restoration, emotional balance, creative expression, and soul-level healing.

It reinforces her role as a peacemaker and intuitive empath. Someone who can hold compassion, mend, harmonize, and help others process.

It also points to a deep connection with the arts, even if there have been moments where she doubted her own creative potential.

The shadow of Temperance is conflict avoidance.

Not because she is weak, but because she may sometimes try so hard to maintain peace that she does not speak up for herself.

Mandi said this used to be a problem for a very long time.

But she has been doing the work.

Between The Hanged Man, The High Priestess, The Tower, and Temperance, Mandi’s chart repeats a clear message:

She is a healer, but not a martyr.

She is a bridge, but not something people get to walk over.

Money Lock: The Fool

In the Matrix of Destiny, the money line shows how abundance moves through the chart. The money lock points to the energy that can either block or open financial flow.

Mandi’s money lock is The Fool.

The Fool is one of my favorite cards, and in this position, it says that prosperity for Mandi is a dance between freedom and grounding.

She needs movement, creativity, openness, and expansion.

Rigid environments shut her money tap off.

If she over-identifies with one job, one role, one routine, or one narrow way of being successful, her abundance can constrict.

The Fool asks her to maintain freedom.

To move when something no longer serves her.

To embrace change.

To release fear around leaving stagnant roles or outdated versions of success.

But The Fool also needs grounding. This placement can swing between impulsive spending and hoarding. The key is financial balance: enjoying what she earns while maintaining a foundation.

Mandi said this hits. “I always spend the money when I have the money,” she said. But she also shared that she has been saving lately, and the flow has felt good.

The Fool does not want Mandi trapped. But it also does not want her floating untethered.

Her abundance grows when freedom and responsibility are allowed to coexist.

Where the Money Comes Back: The Chariot

One of my favorite parts of the money line shows where someone can spend money and have that energy return.

For Mandi, this placement is The Chariot.

Which means money comes back when she invests in momentum, tools, partnerships, travel, technology, physical wellness, and anything that carries her vision forward.

The Chariot is about movement, speed, vitality, progress, and personal freedom.

So when Mandi spends money on things that help her move, expand, travel, create faster, feel stronger, or push her vision forward, that money is not just an expense. It is an investment in motion.

Naturally, this led us to cars. Specifically, muscle cars.

Mandi has wanted to collect muscle cars since she was a teenager, and now she is in a place where that dream feels possible. She talked about wanting to show up to her own gallery show or mural in a badass car and take photos of it in front of her work.

And you know what? The chart supports it.

Mandi has Chariot energy in her love line twice and in her money line.

So yes, the muscle car thing makes weirdly perfect sense.

The Chariot wants her in motion.

The Chariot wants her to feel powerful.

The Chariot wants her to arrive like she means it.

Purpose: The Hermit

Mandi’s umbrella purpose is The Hermit.

This is the lifelong spiritual energy that sits over her chart.

The Hermit represents wisdom, study, reflection, solitude, and eventually, guiding others with the light you have cultivated in private.

This does not mean Mandi is meant to disappear into a cave forever.

It means she is someone who gathers deeply from life.

She processes. She observes. She studies people, grief, emotion, art, nature, and the strange symbolic language of being alive.

Then, eventually, she is meant to share that wisdom.

Hermit energy often points to someone with a natural gift for processing a lot of information and distilling it down into what matters.

It also asks for a balance between spiritual life and physical life.

Mandi is deeply mystical, but she is also deeply embodied. She is not just floating in the ether. She is painting 90-foot walls, scaling scaffolding, using heavy machinery, moving her body, building, sweating, hurting, making, touching the real world.

That is part of her wisdom.

She is not just a soul having a spiritual experience.

She is a soul having a very physical, colorful, large-scale human experience.

The Hermit also suggests that Mandi is eventually meant to distill her knowledge into words, mentorship, or guidance for a wider audience.

Mandi does not talk a lot online. Her energy has often been more “shut up and paint.” She feels like people talk too much and act too little.

But lately, she has been feeling the tension of knowing people do not really know her. And she has so much to share, especially about grief, wounds, and the way pain can become a superpower without pretending it did not hurt.

She talked about how people in her life often come to her when they are grieving or trying to process something because they know she has been through deep grief.

“I can really speak to that on different levels,” she said.

That is The Hermit.

The person who survives the dark, learns its language, and eventually becomes a lantern for someone else.

Purpose Before 40: The Hanged Man

Mandi’s purpose energy before 40 is The Hanged Man, which also happens to be her inner self.

So this energy is deeply important in her chart.

This era of her life is about transitioning from the exhaustion of self-sacrifice into the radiant power of self-honored service.

Not service that costs her everything.

Not service that requires her to disappear.

Not service that repeats the old pattern of overgiving to receive validation.

Self-honored service.

This phase asks her to establish boundaries, say no without guilt, prioritize self-care, nurture creativity, and express her authentic inner world.

This is the part of the chart that says Mandi is not here to stop giving.

She is here to stop bleeding herself dry.

She is here to keep the compassion, the art, the generosity, the mentorship, the magic, and the community care, but remove the self-abandonment.

Mandi said she is definitely in this zone right now.

And it makes sense.

Her work is expanding.

Her voice is shifting.

Her boundaries are sharpening.

The scale is getting bigger because the inner world is asking for more room.

Purpose After 40: The Devil

After 40, Mandi moves into The Devil energy.

As a Capricorn, I love The Devil card, and I will always defend it.

The Devil is not automatically bad. In this placement, it is about seeing through the surface, understanding shadow, mastering temptation, and helping others confront what keeps them bound.

For Mandi, this energy invites her to use her profound clarity to guide others toward their own light.

It also brings what is called the mirror effect.

Others may reveal their shadow selves in her presence.

This means people may come to her with the parts of themselves they do not know what to do with. Their grief. Their wounds. Their shame. Their anger. Their desire. Their fear. Their creative blocks. Their hidden selves.

And Mandi will be able to see through the surface.

Not to judge them, but to recognize the light underneath.

This energy also brings discernment. She will be asked to stay grounded around power, excess, shortcuts, and easy gain. But it also points to professional alignment and stepping more fully into her own authority.

Mandi joked that this is the opposite of how she feels now.

But she has seven years.

The chart does not say she has to be there today.

It says this is where the path is leading.

The Through Line

Mandi’s chart is full of mystical, artistic, intuitive, and transformative energy.

The Hanged Man gives her perspective.

The Moon gives her magic.

The High Priestess gives her intuition.

The Tower gives her resilience.

Temperance gives her healing.

The Fool gives her freedom.

The Chariot gives her movement.

The Hermit gives her wisdom.

And The Devil eventually gives her the power to look straight at the shadow without flinching.

What struck me most about this reading is how much her chart mirrored the way she described herself before we even began.

She said she holds everything.

Her chart said yes, and now you are learning what is yours to hold.

She said she needs to create with her body.

Her chart said yes, because your wisdom is not abstract. It is physical, embodied, painted, scaled, and built.

She said she lives in a mystic realm.

Her chart said yes, Moon child, High Priestess, Hanged Man, of course you do.

She said she has known deep grief.

Her chart said yes, and one day, that grief becomes a lantern.

Mandi’s chart does not describe someone who is simply here to make beautiful things.

It describes someone who turns walls into portals.

Someone who takes grief, folklore, nature, color, scale, machinery, emotion, and memory, and makes them visible.

Someone who is learning that being a healer does not require becoming an offering.

Someone whose work belongs to the public, but whose energy still belongs to her.

That may be the whole lesson of this chart.

To keep creating big.

To keep loving deeply.

To keep letting the mystical realm speak.

But to remember that the wall can hold the story.

She does not have to hold all of it alone.